Rocking the world, rocking the world. Bought a building, axed my bank. Splitting websites. My new corporate masters are merciless indeed. Notorious and infamous. But at the same time, people. Save the grotesquely overpaid at the top. Well, many are those who would say that I am grotesquely overpaid. But far indeed is it from the bare minimum six to seven. Or even eight. I’ll never get there because I can’t get there. The closer I get the more I have to give away. This is why I don’t really have a guru. I am half-assed and I think that’s best. I think that’s moderation. Everyone’s a hypocrite and I know that includes me. So I overanalyze myself and my situation, I do not act as much as I could. But I believe that I act as I should.

I tried social conscience in a fairly pure form. And I learned that the purer its form the more corrupt. Because self-importance is human nature and to truly give that up one must give up doing entirely. I think I can have enlightenment if I dare to really want it. I think that one must stop doing and be. Social activists are not enlightened. As great and truly important as their works may be they are still ego tripping. As am I. So I want to support them, perhaps even be like them a bit, but I want to do other things too.

I have enjoyed building networks, servers and the like. I have pride that I have changed the world, left a mark however ephemeral. Yes, I have pride. A sin? How can one not have some pride in anything one does?