I did say nuh-uh. But wow. What a miracle. I'm going to use the forum because it's easier but it won't become the blog yet. What a weekend, what an honor, what a sham I could be. And yet I am not. When asked where I did my undergrad I didn't bother to mention that I dropped out, but I think the assumption was safely made that I did not go back, nor even finish. I couldn't afford it, my parents could not be expected to bankroll my five-year plan and yet I held my own. With David Rockefeller, with Dianne Ecks, with the Bishop of Cambridge. And I am not proud that I could discourse, refute, share and enjoy their company; I am grateful that they endured mine. I got to stay in Lowell house, I got to hear the most gorgeous and disturbing seventeenth century oratorio, I got to talk with high powered people, I got to listen to the first movement of the Brahms B-major trio live in the front hall, and most importantly to me I got to see my family. My parents and Aunt Jean. Seperately, and time was very tight with Jean, but it was a perfect end to a perfect weekend. I cannot even regret that I have no dear one to share it with. The scheduling was improbable and I don't think anyone but myself could have pulled it off. And maybe that shall be the story of my life. All of this sprituality reminds me why I want to retire as a monk. Which means that if I cannot get the family thing done in a few more years that I shall not. And that's ok. Wonderful in fact. So much brilliance. I a mote, a nothing, and yet beloved and loving of creation. Thank you. I think I will blog a little in the forum, for I missed Thursday and it is more suited to retrofitting than this clumsy cobbled creation; the structure of my blog. And the more prople who go there the more likely a conversation will start. That is all we have. I am sorry that I am so quiet and I am grateful that Dorothy pulled me out. While I do not have any inherent respect for academics I must say that those who study theology are studying something very important. Has anyone been paying attention to what I have really been saying here? Have I? Thank you.