Wreckless Endangerment
Well enough. No, J's wellbeing is not my responsibility, J. Thanks for
advising. I mean, even if it were I'm not really competent to determine how
best to foster it. Living with a liar may be exactly what he wants, I only know
it is anathema to me. And I'm not even violating my second precept so long as
I don't see him. Interesting side effect as well, I get to study whether the
second is subservient to the first. That does seem possible, they must
conflict at times. But I think it's probably a case by case basis. The second
is so shocking and so alien to human cultures I need to explore it. I am
absolutely certain that I am correct. Thank cod I have a Chinese girl to study
it with. Speaking of alien.
I locked L in the apartment yesterday. Long story but the exciting part
was a nice walk to work, getting the call from him just as I was hanging my
coat, excusing myself for my inability to do a lesson plan and the possibility
that I would be late, dashing down and finding a cab right outside the office,
catching every green light on the way until the last on my very corner
whereupon I overpaid, jumped out in the middle of traffic, ran, caught an
elevator in reasonable time considering how bad it can be here, released L,
caught another back down in reasonable time, proceeded not to find a cab for a
while, caught every red light on the way back and made it into the classroom
approximately three minutes late. Amy hit me in the head with a pen. She's
brilliant but I'm just as happy her mother's taking her out 'because she can't
learn here', the class will be ten times better.
Everything works out. The disengagement I spoke of last entry is not
driving me to act after all. I care but I don't pretend to know what's best. I
have always wished the best for them. I have no idea what that is but balancing
with what's best for me it is certainly not involvement in my life. And then
there's S. What am I supposed to do with her?