My mistake
I talk too much, I don't talk enough. JR is angry at me. From my persepective I
saved his life, but whatevah, mai guan xi. If it was in fact he to whom I
spoke. Removing me from gchat is a clue that it prolly was but if she
compromised his account she could have done that too. Of course other evidence
accumulates and lard almighty, how I laugh.
S baby, I love you to bits. If it is at all in the realm of possibility
that we could make it work we will. I will. I'll stop voicing my concerns, you
know 'em already. You share a few. But if I make you one hundredth as happy as
you make me then you'll stick it out. I will make the necessary effort. I will
be as Chinese as I can be. Of course I have new concerns about that given what
I read on Stratfor but so what, we all gotta die someday. You should see
Thailand first.
I'm going tomorrow. It breaks my heart to leave her but she doesn't have a
passport yet. And I'll try to be back for her birthday. No idea where the
money'll come from but seeing as how much is owed me it certainly oughta come.
I'm going to live with M, he's convinced me to bypass CM. So here goes, a trial
run for living together, a trial run for writing together. Strangers in a
strange land of smiles. I think it's gonna be fine. Other than missing S, but I
do that every day.
I'll tellya how I scared her when I figure it out. Maybe tonight. Maybe
tomorrow, I do believe I'll take her to the airport. Can I take her out of
China? That's the dream. Not tomorrow but in the foreseeable. We hope. And yes,
I will live here too. Not Tianjin methinks, I hope she'll settle for ShangHai.
If she'll settle for me.
I'd better try to make voice contact with JR on the 27th. Make sure
psychobitch hasn't raised her dishonesty to stratospheric levels. As I say,
hilarious evidence indicates otherwise but when one is talking about a man's
life one ought to be sure.