A blessing and a curse
A blessing and a curse
I love my fellow human race
Where I am last as I am first
Could kiss our shining bloodied face
Where all our futures burst
A blessing and a curse
A blessing and a curse
Looking out across these fields of white
Returned to land where I was nursed
To get it wrong I'd set it right
With all my dreams dispersed
A blessing and a curse
A blessing and a curse
No end now, come and hold my hand
I am the best, I am the worst
You've seen me then, unlucky man
For I am blessed as I am cursed
A blessing and a curse
A blessing and a curse
Thursday morn dawns bleak and gray
The buzzing sound across the bay
No one should've ever died this way
It's a big day for Enola Gay
Jane got up a bit later she was feeling none too pretty
Everything seemed so important last night, far below now and looking itty-bitty
Don't blame it on the city
I got up around dark I was feeling neither sharp nor witty
The fragments of the past not showing any kind of clarity
Don't blame it on the city
I appreciate an irony
I hope that you do to
I'm always looking for what's funny
But here we're just getting screwed
And my spiritual advisors have taught me not to hate
And I really do not have to when I see the man for real
And when I wrote this ditty for young master Billy Gates
I found that mostly pity is really what I feel
I barely control my own life
I've no desire to mess with yours
I've got my own ordeals to get right
Please don't ask me to take more
But all our spiritual advisors have told us not to hate
And the outlook that he leaves us ain't really all that grim
We haven't really lost our choice, the hour's not to late
And if we just surrender I can hardly blame just him
And in the mourning I'll be gone
One such as me shall not brave the dawn
Je suis desole
Were we competing?
Then I've tabula rasa carte
Blanche it's your flesh I'm eating
And in the mourning I'll be gone
Seek you bodies 'neath the lawn
Que lastima
Yeah, you can sing
Can you die with grace
Beneath my wing?
And in the mourning I'll be gone
I did not write this song
I believe, I perceive
Sometimes I even think
I conceive, I believe
I'll have another drink
If you can't conceive the music
Why'd I bother to ring the bell?
Since you don't believe in heaven
Why spare you the flames of hell?
I believe, I perceive
Sometimes I even think
I conceive, I believe
I'll have another drink
So you know that she did
She made me feel old
And the truth it should out
Now let it be told
But it's a little bit funny
When a woman don't wanna be called young she
Didn't, still I'm over the hilly
Or am I just being silly?
So do we see that it isn't
My department
Hostility in my
Minisculity apartment
If I take it all back
Will you call off your attack?
Must I take this bitter pilly?
Or am I just being silly?
Stand still, little girl
I think I'm coming in for a landing
We both know that wisdom is a pearl
Still, have a hard look at me
Ask yourself what you really see
It just might rearrange your world
Speak soft, the hammer of understanding
Ho now, all of us
The best man's the last one standing
Speakin' true, it's always free or bust
It usually will end the same
You've got hope and you've got game
But it is ashes to ashes, dust to dust
Here is the hammer of understanding
Walk slow, human race
Lest your armies start disbanding
Wipe that cruel smirk off your face
You are laughing at your own pain
Gluttonous and without shame
No longer possible to stay in your place
Here with the hammer of understanding
Could you show me some terror?
O could you show me some fear?
They held his wife down in the next room
And they blew his mind clear
Now the insurance company won't pay up
The cops ne'er caught the murderer
Which gives those pigs a nice loophole
They say that it might be her
Perhaps you think that I'm joking
Maybe you think I make light
Well we can go down to Tucson
And I could show you tonight
Can you show me some flowers?
Can you show me some tears?
I'll sing a song for my brother
He was murdered last year
As your friends unlearn me
How your thoughts they burn me
Yes I can read your mind
Because I ain't half blind
And there is no time
For crying
I know I came here to do something
I still haven't got it one time right
You know I'm tired of being nice
I am really sick of being polite
If I could just find someone who
Didn't treat me like you
Sure the same goes for me
Y'know I've ne'er learned much from nothing
You can't help someone else to see the light
If there's no reason why you came here
Then asking you to go is not in spite
What if the dervish could sing?
Think of the words he might bring
Just watch me dance
Why should I be sad?
Why should I feel bad?
Why even bother getting mad?
It's the same old nothing I ever had
How does it feel to always, I mean always, get it wrong?
The mystery is how I have survived even this long
Why should I be sad?
Why should I feel bad?
Why even bother getting mad?
It's the same old nothing I ever had
We come into this world alone and we must leave it just the same
We may lie to ourselves, or ha ha ha hang time playing games
Why should I be sad?
Why should I feel bad?
Why even bother getting mad?
It's the same old nothing I ever had
Look across the waves
Now isn't that nice?
Know not a single one
Could ever pass this way twice
Look across the waves
Know not a single one
For I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
What makes you think I have feelings
To go unspoken?
Good thing I have no heart
Or it'd be broken
What makes you think I have feelings?
Good thing I have no heart
Or I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
At the very bottom
One appreciates light
For underneath all that water
It's eternal night
At the very bottom
Underneath all of that
Stand I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
I pity/admire those
Who think that they have a choice
I do not think it is so
All I have is this voice
I pity/admire those
I do not think it is so
For I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
Do you really believe
The water can wash you clean?
Do you think that I can
Ever know what she mean?
Do you really believe?
Do you think that I can?
Or I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
Now I can hope and dream
That I have made her smile
Even plot and scheme
For just a little while
I could hope or dream
Even plot and scheme
That I and the princess of the river
Only wish I'd something more to give her
O no!
I seem to have run my tractor-trailer
Over your birthday party!
O no!
Did I mention the condolences have shown up rather tard-
-y? Now did I? Should I worry?
Just because no one's ever gonna be sorry
Doesn't mean you stole my heart
O no!
While I waxed and polished my art
Life seems to have impaled 'er
I wish it were possible to go on tonight
I wish I could see that everything's alright
I wish that I could keep my eyes from straying beyond
the pale
But I can't avoid the conclusion most clear
That something very wrong has happened here
I listen to the cascade and I know that the air is stale
Nobody lives forever, why would one want to?
The suffering's supreme and the lovers just daunt you
And you can worship the muse she's still gonna bite your
tail
Let's just vamoose, go, abscond, escape, leave
Before the next one comes and we can't breathe
Nothing worth doing here: the air is stale
I've gone away and left you once again
I won't be back farewell the world's too large
Too settle for your version of a friend
This is the only life of which I am in charge
It really must be that for which I'm made
It's always come so naturally to me
I'm never there when the piper's paid
Because the act of paying sets me free
I've gone away and left you once again
I promise you're better off than you were
I'll pass on through, just go, and then
Render unto her that which belonged to her
It's better that it end like this you know
It's only ever really a matter of time
You'll sing not one praise for me as I go
Again it is the going and it is mine
Lying is bad
Lying is bad
I was trying to be happy for you
When I heard what you thought that I'd do
I'm plenty disturbed, but not mad
Can't anyone see that lying is bad?
Lying is bad
Lying is bad
I'm still going to be your friend
Although the pain is not going to end
'Til you take back the things that you said
Can't anyone see that lying is bad?
Lying is bad
Lying is bad
This is all that breaks my heart
You spit on my peace and my art
Violence has only ever made me sad
Can't anyone see that lying is bad?
Lying is bad
Lying is bad
I have fall down
Nervous exhaustion
I sure I recover
I am not sure when
All these axons and dendrites
The synapses fused
They'll not fire again
I think that soon
I reach a place
Where I no longer desire nor need
Human contact
Don't touch me, please
Human contact
Died on my knees
I drink at noon
To be erased
For nothing I could ever do or say
Will redeem me
Don't touch me please
Human contact?
Died on my knees
And I am sick of sleeping alone
Knowing she does not do the same
And it is quick to lose a home
And I am tired of this pain
Get used to it!
Have you seen my blue-eyed badness?
And I have walked through beacoup sadness
So at the dawning of this new day
Hope me find me way as you found you way
Second choice, second chance
My second wind I will join the dance
Second coming of the seventh son
I will stop gunning when the war is won
Have you seen the one who leaves me?
Then you know what it is that grieves me
Now does she really hope to see me
sunk so low and no one to free me?
Have you any idea how to save this?
If you do, tell me how
Have you any idea how to save this?
If you do, tell me how
Tell me now!
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All I can think of is shaking the president's hand
I can not speak of anything else
It's incredible, it's impossible to describe
All I can think of is shaking the president's hand
And I would follow you into the ground
There are times that I feel I could sink without a sound
But I have no time left for following you
Now that I have done all that I can do
I know what
It feels like
I said I know what it feels like
To be dead
Earth into fire
Fire to water
Water to air
And air into earth
I know what
It feels like
I said I know what it feels like
To be alive
Earth into fire
Fire to water
Water to air
And air into earth
The undisciplined mind and its TV screen
Do you know what I mean, do you think we might find
One undisciplined mind
The undisciplined heart, and it's fickle mean
Can you hear what I say, do you think we have seen
One undisciplined heart
I tried to tell you it was alright, you should stay
And you replied that you just had to go away
I tried to explain you should stay, you should be mine
We have both been the victims, of an undisciplined mind
The undisciplined boy with his eyes so bright
May his love bring you joy for a good fortnight
The undisciplined boy
The undisciplined girl and her heart like a door
In my whole damn life I have asked for no more
That undisciplined girl
I tried to tell you it was alright, you should stay
And you replied that you just had to go away
I tried to explain you should stay, you should be mine
We have both been the victims, of an undisciplined mind
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Remember me, and all that I did do
Remember me, for I did indeed love you
But don't forget good times we had
And as you leave, please don't go mad
The future passed and not so sad
'Cause I'll remember you
Remember me, and how I made you feel
Remember me, for this heart that I bear is real
Remember the good times we had there
And how we thought that we had love to spare
And now you leave me here without a care
But I'll remember you
Remember me, and all that I did wrong
Remember me, and why I had to write this song
And as the suffering years go by
Remember the bed that we did lie
If aught but to hold another and cry
I will remember you
You are right, I am wrong
I am weak while you are strong
I am a fool and you are wise
And I will fall that you may rise
This is the day we all fear, when everything becomes clear
It is the day we all dread, when we may open our heads
Step out into the real world
Admit it's all for one girl
I must die, that you may live
For as I have taken, so must you give
You will thrive, and I shall rot
For you walk in light, and I do not
This is the day we all fear, when everything becomes clear
It is the day we all dread, when we will open our heads
Step out into this real world
Admit it's all for some girl
Some say he died of a broken heart
Which they say I caused, I caused
How's that for a healthy start?
Would that serve to give you pause?
Back when I walked his hills
I had no thought to kill
I am sorry blood was spilt
But I don't accept this guilt
That was the time they said
I was not welcome home
This man that I loved was dead
And I was left alone
Back when I walked his hills
I had no thought to kill
I am sorry blood was spilt
But I don't accept this guilt
So now you know everything I've got
Nothing to show you
Then I'm wasting my life here
Time to move on
Seen you watching from the top of the stairs I said
"Come down, to where I am"
Didn't see me watching you were...
Unaware
So now you've seen everything I've got
Nothing to teach you
Then I'm wasting my time here
Move my life on
See me watching from the top of the stairs you say
"Come down, to where I am"
Didn't see me watching you were...
Unaware
Bide a while and wait a while, see what you can see
I'll bide a while and wait a while, there ain't no one
but me
You bide a while and wait a while, waste time playing
games
I'll bide a while and wait a while until you call my
name
Looming cliffs and pounding surf, the wind blows in her
hair
Seaside scent, could look around, just feel her floating
there
I'm hypnotized, you pierce my eyes, these shallow pools
of thought
Know this then, I'll have your heart if all else comes
to naught
You bide a while and wait a while, see what makes you
feel
I'll bide a while and wait a while like I was made of
steel
Bide a while and wait a while, learn what you can learn
I'll bide a while and wait a while but I, my love, will
burn
Desert night, a biting wind is playing in your dress
The dying light of the setting sun is fading in the west
And then I saw you later on, the dark and smoky bar
I've waited all I can my dear I leave you as you are
It is finished, that is good
It is finished, so mote it should
It should, it should
Take this ring that I give you
As a symbol of the purity
And the endlessness
Of our love
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